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1/31/2005 10:11:00 PM
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i found tt i am improving... i managed to do one mths tutorial and half an econs essay today... compared to the usual nothing. i really really need to study... to hell wif the first 3 month not for studying policy...
i found out tt flautists in vj and tj are all quite strong academically, maybe except for abt 2... one of whom ish me... crap.
there's a test tml... but i forgot what... shall go ask... hmm... dismissed at 12.45 tml... haha... den scg lunch... money... mich said shud treasure my frens cuz i dunno when will leave them... tt's so true indeed...
memories of vscb started picturing again... haix... miss those days...
to any vscb member who comes across this blog: GO STUDY!!! U GO VS TO STUDY. NOT FOR BAND. but do treasure the moments u have with ur friends... u'll have to leave some of them really soon... for me, i left ALL of them. at least for the first 3 months... this feeling sux...
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1/30/2005 09:15:00 PM
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oh crap. i didn't study again... woah... apparently since 3 batches ago, there's one vscb guy each year who goes tj and gets retained... so out of the 4 vscb guys tt i know went there, 3 got retained... i dun think the 4th did exceptionally well either... if this carries on, i'll definitely be the 4th to get retained...
oh yar. did i forget to mention tt my playing at ytd's band prac sucked? it was disgustingly horrible... sickening.
tagboard finally decided to work.
stoopid vivian... ur tagboard also working liaoz lah... and cuz u tell me to go vote for u i was late and tio $0.50 fine lahz... and u were really mutilising tt poor tree wadz... tt one not crazy den wad? :P and sorry lahz... didn't go vote for u... u have to thank me lorx... if not u would have to sacrifice band... and u will start sounding lyk sum wasp...
now my cg also wants angel and mortal... $$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
juz a note: vs timetable ends at ard 5 every day. my tj timetable ends at 12.45 on mon, tue 1.30, wed 3, thu 3.45, fri 3. i still have free periods in between etc. vs dsn't. this is thanks to mr ang pow chew, principal of vs from 2001(when i went in=___=) to 2004(when i left). but somehow he's still there...
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1/29/2005 06:28:00 PM
supposed to go sentosa with scico ppl but decided not to. partly cuz of current financial difficulties but mostly cuz of physical difficulties... so tired...
scg lunch on mon... tt means more money. and they also decided to play angel and mortal... even more money...
feb ish coming... tt means results are coming too...
we shall see...
since i rejected all outings for today, i shall be a good boi and stay at home to study... i realised i have a lot of catching up to so, since ive slept for almost all my lectures and tutorials...
i've changed my hotmail to tkflutez@hotmail.com
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1/29/2005 01:32:00 PM
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juz reached home a while ago... had pe juz now. L-route(abt 3.2k) then usual stuff. dunno y now eye so pain... im typing with my eyes closed.... still need to do econs essay, and bio stuff...
there's election for o2 comitee tml... i have a list of ppl i'm supposed to vote for... some clash but heng can vote for 3 ppl per post...
i saw faisal at tj... at least i thought it was him... i hope not...
i'm supposed to be doing econs...
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1/27/2005 08:14:00 PM
in the com lab now supposed to do bio but obviously i'm not...
lala lala, lala lala, elmo's world........ lala lala, lala lala, elmo's world......
whee... so bored...
today's timetable sux...
blah...
glad says mr tan very shuai...
mr tan our eng tutor...
as well as me...
yay
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1/27/2005 08:32:00 AM
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other than mths lecture and band, school today was basically a waste of time. after school there was come house meeting, then scico meeting... i played horribly during band partly cuz some keys of the flute were leaking, but mostly cuz i sux...
timetable tml pretty hectic... maybe i'll go back vs after tt... they end at 5 every day... even later than me...
vivian was plucking the bark off a tree while waiting for the bus juz now... and she said the tree was bleeding cuz she saw a red spot in the tree... she then said it was crying cuz there were two spots tt were supposed to be eyes... then she said the inside of the tree felt lyk styrofoam and decided to keep a piece... so off came another piece...
stupid genevis anyhow spread scandal... totally no link... no meaning... no reason... blah...
stoopid hao siang also...
idert mona send me virus...
DUN ACCEPT ANY FILE I SEND U... ITS A VIRUS...
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1/26/2005 08:33:00 PM
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i woke up with a slight fever this morning. went swimming pe and ended up with a bad fever, but i still managed to last thru sch. somehow i didn't go home after school... practiced... actually i was abt to go home cuz there was no yr 1s in the band room. then mona called me... ended up in the band room with mona and vivian... playing crap... toking more crap.
due to my fever i had plenty of warm air, but my sound still sux... argh... auditions postphoned to 19th feb, so i'll have more time to prac.
they decided to keep with plan b for the rest of the term... i dun really mind, cuz my plan b timetable is fine. so is my scg. neither do i mind plan a although lessons end sickeningly late... there are many breaks in between... dsn't matter... the desicion is plan b... i pity the teachers who stayed up to formulate the new timetable which was never tried out...
there's band prac tml, as well as the sci council meeting... omg... for now band is my priority. hopefully can arrange a time which dsn't clash with band... if not i'll go for band.
band is sth i cannot live without...
mona cant open the band room door...
a lot of ppl from gs pri are crazy...eg. hao, mona, vivian......
same for tkg...
i'm crazy...
wadeva=______________=
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1/25/2005 08:12:00 PM
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oops... sry abt the previous post... a bit harsh... i wasn't talking abt anybody. really. i juz figured no point thinking so much now. just enjoy myself and do what i think i should do for now. whether i stay or not after these few weeks is a problem which should be adressed after these few weeks. so dun bother asking me, cuz i dun have an answer.
to ppl who are worried i might go or stay after jae... dun worry. cuz i'm not worried. and i really dont know. i'm not going to know until after i get my results.
to others who are not happy they didn't get into the school they want: just enjoy ur term... u cant do anything now. fretting makes u an idiot just lyk me.
dun be an idiot.
even if u are one, change it.
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1/24/2005 09:55:00 PM
whatever. curse me if u want. hate me if u wish. do whatever u deem fit. whoever u are. i cant keep doing things for others. have to think for myself also. i've been so worried abt what others would think if i leave tj, or not go vj. whatever. i dun care liaoz. this is stupid. utter stupidity. i was stupid. and am stupid. argh. pissed. wasted so much time thinking abt these crap. confusing myself. making my own life miserable. i should have realised earlier...
all i can and should do now is wait. i'll make a desicion when o lv results come out. whatever it is. some ppl might be happy and others not. what the heck. as if i'm so influential in their lives... i'm only influential in my own life. i decide. not others.
argh...
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1/24/2005 09:46:00 PM
OMG!! i got into the science research society... i only submitted the form for fun at first.. and i didn't expect to get in. at all. bev and me got in. zz didn't... rah and josh in, mona and fren not... what the heck?!?!
whenever i persuade myself to stay, i meet up with vs ppl and decide to go back. and when i decide to go back, sth lyk this happens...
5 weeks more... getting more and more afraid every day. afraid i would make the wrong desicion. afraid to face ppl if i go... worried abt my results...
i'm going crazy.........................
everyone tells me not to think abt it too much.
as if its so easy...
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1/24/2005 08:00:00 PM
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went cine ytd. supposed to meet at 12. i reached at abt 1... the latest at abt 2... spent another 1 hr deciding what to do, then went pool... after tt they went dunno where play b ball and i went ps with vs guys...
turned out a lot of things happened during these 3 weeks... tonnes of rumours... some of them true... some juz pure crap.
finally arranged my notes and everything, although they are stil very messy... dun see the link but nvm... gonna do tutorials later... finally...
tml 4th week of school. last week of jan. then feb... then march...
nxt sat is 29th. they havent called me to confirm... dunno if i submitted on time... even if i have... dunno if i can practice enough in 1 week to make it...
omg...
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1/23/2005 01:31:00 PM
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was late for school on thu. actually i was only late by lyk 5 mins, but after tt tong gave his speech(which he said was the mildest of all speeches), i tapped my card very late. whateva. then went for bio tutorial 1/2 hr late cuz i lost my way. coincidentally the tutor was talking abt puncuality when i entered... well, great way to start the day. chem i didn't do tutorials but we were given time to do. the rest of the day was basically boring. pe ran half the L route. apparently it was abt 2 km. felt shorter than from vs to east coast and back though...
i saw genevis bringing pei xun ard on my way out. alvin called me when i was waiting for the bus. in the end i was bringing alvin and shaun ard tj. also saw jessie and jie jun, whom until now i still tend to mix up. managed to find out some interesting facts or rumours from them...
another og outing later... lyk free... i think this time its cuz hao quan is too bored... he was msging me on thu night, or fri morning asking me where to go... mad.
scandals are flying ard like birds in an aivary...
anyhow sia...
i found my hole puncher... but my file is still stuffed with papers... without holes...
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1/22/2005 10:49:00 AM
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temporary timetable with tutorials given out today. mine is fine. mon and tue finish early. wed and fri late(but dsn't matter cuz there's band prac). thu not really nice...
speaking of band, there was band prac juz now. after band prac there was auditions. apparently the section is too big so they cant take in everybody. i dunno fortunately or unfortunately i managed to pass it and got in. 3 others did not make it. one of them very sad... actually i wasn't really worried abt the audition. i was and am worried abt what happens after i get in... syf is in may. jae in march. abt 1 month before syf...
i figured i shouldn't let band or my friends decide which jc i should go, as much as they have a huge influence in my life.
choices... delima...
waiting...
have to decide sooner or later...
tt's if my o lv results even allow me the luxyry and curse of choice...
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1/19/2005 08:33:00 PM
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OMG!!! i'm really gonna get fat if this goes on... i had breakfast this morning. after swim i had chicken chop + spagetti + baked beans. after mths lor mee. then went bugis had bubble tea + some cake. then at night fish + soup + vege + rice at bedok...
it would be ok if i eat a lot and use a lot of energy... BUT... swimming pe consisted of one pathetic lap. and the rest of the day was spent sleeping in lectures. although i would consider lectures energy consuming, they definitely do not prevent me from getting fat.
i shall go on a diet.
i've been saying tt since last week...
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1/18/2005 09:45:00 PM
blogging in the hub now. nothing else to do. did enough maths to survive the tutorial later. just finished filling up the form for the sci soc. wrote tonnes of crap. i'm not really expecting to get in anyway...
swimming for pe was... we went to the swimming complex at 7 plus. the coach or whoever gave some 1 hr speech on time saving... then swam one lap and came back to school. ate some chicken chop and went for bio. after tt ate somemore and came here to slack. waiting for lunch at 12 and then mass mths tutorial at 12.45...
pong: ppl who come to tj get fat after 3 months...
i get what u mean...
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1/18/2005 11:41:00 AM
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real timetable supposed to start this week, but turned out there was some error with the system or sth... so for this week, timetable is still quite slack... my whole cg is split apart, but i found mathias and pravu in the same sg as me... tt's good, cuz at least there's someone who does things las min with me...
swimming tml... havent done it for a long time...
i guess i'll have to start doing tutorials. there's some mass mths tutorial tml... or maybe i can do in school... since i have plenty of free periods...
i received 20 odd e-mails the past 5 mins... sum update my address book thingy... oh here comes another one...
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1/17/2005 08:24:00 PM
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woot! sg finally won something. whee... hahaz...
i realised week 3 starts tml. after nxt week it'll be one week to end of jan, and then one month to march... while most other ppl have finished most of their tutorials, i just found mine today. somehow i'll find a way.
tue is the deadline for submission of application forms for sywo audition. i'm gonna hand it to miss chew tml. somehow i just cant escape the fate of doing things last min...
i look like joel and has his aura?!?!?!?!
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1/16/2005 09:48:00 PM
og outing ytd was fun, except for some gross kissing game. hao kissed someone's butt... i told myself i was not going to get wet, though i figured it was pretty much inevitable... and i was proved right.
apparantly i'm not the only one who has to make a choice at the end of 3 months......
nxt week the real stuff starts. hope i survive. i'm supposed to do tutorials today, but i woke up early in the afternoon and am online now waiting for lunch...
i should go study.
i'll juz do what i should do for now and decide after the 3 months. actually its only about 1 1/2 months.
choices. opportunity cost is defined as the highest valued alternatives that had to be forgone to satisfy the particular want.
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1/16/2005 02:25:00 PM
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yesterday was the last slack day. last lecture at 9 then waited until 3 for band. searched for stuff to do for sci research in the lib and ended up with a few piles of books on the table. they later ended up in the econs section. band was... more comfortable... i realised how they got 2nd in sg for syf... i sat in between mich and vivian... its like sitting between pong and yafen... one tall one short, but both equally noisy...
og outing at pasir ris park later... i shall stay away from the sea...
someone said vivian looks like cake... come to think of it, she does...
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1/15/2005 11:01:00 AM
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well, i'm home blogging again... school finished at 12. went for lunch and came home... really wanted to practice but didn't know anybody there, so changed my mind. decided to take chem bio econs mths. after 3 months then i see if i want physics or bio or both... also decided to sign up for scico as a back up. gonna find sth else to further back up... if i cant join band here, then i'll definitely go back. IF i can...
band tml... still dun feel very comfortable... swimming on tue...
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1/13/2005 02:10:00 PM
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tj band prac today. the band played really well. impressed me. sg rhap sounded quite good. the choice piece, sth abt knights... was not ez... but apparantly they already have tonnes of flautists, so they might only take in a few j1s. might be auditions or sth lyk tt. being victorian i might be slightly disadvantaged=_='' will probably end up with armstrong or sth lyk tt, but dsn't really matter. one big prob though, is... what's gonna happen after term 1???
i witnessed sum pillar thing... i guess its wad mrs poon told us abt when we were sec 2... its lyk... brutal... i still find it better than vs though...
nxt band prac is on fri i think... hope can get to know the ppl better then... feels strange... only know mich beside me, and hq and mona at the back... hq decided to play t-bone... he dsn't want to join band but i'm quite sure i can persuade him to join. then there'll be a total of 3 ppl i know in band...
i've been writing a lot of crap recently. maybe its cuz i'm too free. while most ppl have started with proper timetable, we're still 'sampling' lectures. just chose sub combi just now. i realised i can take bio chem econ mths, so i applied for it. apparantly most ppl have done at least a few tutorials, and i just found mine and decided to start just now. ponned bio lect and ended up stoning in canteen... shud have listened to mich... blah... i forsee a hard time ahead...
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1/12/2005 09:39:00 PM
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yet another boring day at tj. i realised there hasn't been a single lecture i kept myself awake since the very first lecture... i think i'll have to do sth abt tt... practiced a while juz now... dun sound good. sg rhap not exactly the most fun piece... wonder what's the other syf piece for me...
i think there's tj band prac tml. finally sth interesting...
i really need to practice... some events coming up... dun have much details yet...
assuming the o lv results come out at the end of the hols, 21st march, i have abt 59 more days. minus the weekends and holidays its less than 40. dunno what will happen... dun dare to think too much although i'm already thinking a lot... i can picture 2 totally diff senarios, and a third one is forming... somehow none of the senarios feel good... forget it.
i'm writing this so that i can read my blog when things are settled after 3 months, then i can laugh at myself for being so stupidly retarded.
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1/11/2005 08:38:00 PM
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hmm.. dunno how i ended up at home so early, but i'm at home already... yupz... lecture until 9.20, then slacked ard until 12.45 for com... then came home. last lecture tml ends at 12...same for thu. last one for fri is 9.45... this is not the actual timetable though, but i guess i shall enjoy while i can. now i deciding between mths, phy, econ, com and mths, chem, phy, econ. my chem sux but i find its quite important... cant take bio...
gonna take a nap soon...
another day has passed in tj... tt's another day off the 3 months. not saying i cant wait to leave, but o lv results coming in one day less... really want to join band but not so sure if i should for now... wonder if the results are on some plane flying back now... wonder what i would do after i get my results...
i should sleep.
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1/10/2005 02:39:00 PM
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tml is start of week 2. abt 10 more weeks before i have to officially make my decision and probably die doing so. i shall not comment further abt it.
anyway, i realised i've forgotten everything i've learnt for o lvs... i tried doing mths revision qns which were supposed to be hw and got stuck... i wanted to check my sec sch notes and remembered i gave them away... thus obviously i've not finished it. it seems the fact that i'm not victorian(for now) dsn't change the fact that i do things last min, or dun do my hw... i was told we cant do things last min in jc... if tt's really true, i'm gonna be so very screwed...
new route to school turned out to be faster than 31. and new route back home... allows me to sleep longer... and i dun have to walk very far.
victorians gossip a lot.
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1/09/2005 06:45:00 PM
oientation finally ended. overall it was quie fun.. leg feels foreign now... attended some lectures since thu and slept throughout... shant elaborate in detail wad happened the past week.
went swo dhs yck concert ytd. totally the most interesting thing ever.
if i get 6 points for o lv will i stay?
if i am asked this qn what will i say?
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1/09/2005 10:58:00 AM
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3rd day of orientation. wet games quite fun cheated for most of them. not my fault. ogl corrupt onez... esp robin... i shant elaborate too much on things we did today cuz they are not really nice... ytd was sum urban thing... ran all around the place. didn't go east coast cuz of time constraint. pon mass dance ytd to practice skit, but somehow still didn't get in finals... blah... and cuz we pon mass dance we danced lyk ducks today... tml supposed to dance at suntec... i so totally know how to dance..............................................
didn't manage to check out band today cuz of orientation activities etc... tml sum pdp exhibition... supposedly compulsory... and tj takes attendance using ez link card... so diff to do some stunts... but i'm a good boy...
they still have almost 3 months to try change my mind...
og outing after sch tml. renassiance on fri night... gonna be 2 heavy days... legs ache lyk crap after chasing ogls on track and road barefoot today...
decided to take mrt then walk to school. 38 can bring me back to tampines in a slightly longer time than 31 but at least i wun freak out on the bus...
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1/05/2005 08:53:00 PM
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first day of jc today. orientation was fun. much better than i expected... hahaz... but sickeningly tiring. cheer, games, mass dance... now my throat feels farnie, my legs hurt and i have red paint all over my arm cuz of tt flower game... 4 more days of orientation... hope i'll recover in time to be exhausted again tml...
apparantly tml will be at east coast... will get wet... wet games on wed. there's also band on wed afternoon... thu not sure. fri night renaissance... nxt week lessons... pe we swimming... now i really need to train...
still havent changed my mind for now... yet... tj is not bad also...
mich ah bu happy? pong ah ma also dun sad... i neva say i confirm stay...
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1/03/2005 07:46:00 PM
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school starts tml... decided to take train den bus... tt's if i rmb... too used to walking to interchange i often do it with my eyes closed...
i still dunno wad group i am in. neither is my chinese very fantastic... or even decent... gonna see when i can check out the band though... tt's the only thing i'm looking forward to in jc at the moment...
well, to sec 4s: study DAMN HARD. dun try to do last min stunts unless u wan end up in some strange planet from jan to march nxt year...
to sec 3s, 2s and 1s: STUDY DAMN HARD ALSO... they looked at my sec 3 and 4 results for appeal... still wonder why i didn't make it?
to those who went the jc u wanted: congrats:) enjoy urselves...
to those who didn't: some of those above will be out in 3 months, so we'll have another chance...
to everybody: happy new year again...
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1/02/2005 08:07:00 PM
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this is the official new year post.
before i even look into the new year, i looked into the past. i was thinking on the bus and somehow i ended up 4 years back...
2001: sec 1. i still remember it was drizzling lightly when i first stepped into vs at geylang bahru lane to register... we went to our form class and mr quek introduced himself. dimitra who was sitting beside me borrowed a pen to fill up something. first morning assembly i sat with dinesh, shaun, dimitra and yj. i can list out everything i did if i wanted to... it all seems so near. Took a while before i managed to find the band room behind the hall. Tried out the flute and got into the section together with zy, kenny and dicky(who quit later). I still wasn't very attached to the band then... i knew sl was kien wee but didn't know him well.
2002: i was sec 2. this was the year i got more involved in band. It was the year i started getting addicted, the year i started getting to know more band members and became good friends with them. played for mw 19. great concert at nucc. practiced with zy almost every day. tt was how i got addicted to the flute. i have never been able to leave my flute since then. joel was nice although he sometimes came up with some sick ideas... section did well under him. since sec 2 my life has been based mainly around band. school became more like somewhere i simply go for band...
2003: i was in sec 3g. chris was the only other vscb member there. hated the class at first, but got better as time passed. got to know wr, glen, kevin, ngiam etc... band... practiced so hard i got neumothorax(not sure of spelling)... played postcard at SYF and got GOLD!!!!!! i still remember the feeling when we heard the news... Got the sl post. was already quite used to it thanks to zx... studies took a dive. apparantly zy and kenny's did too... and so did most of the others...
2004: my most eventful year in vs. mw 20, another fantastic concert at vch and the australian exchange trip. worked hard with the other sec 4s to make these activities a sucess... handover... cried. decided to study after screwing up mid yr exams. managed to pull l1r5 from 28 to 11... but still not enough... o levels my final chance...
looking back at my life in vs, i realised it had been based ard band. I've made some really great friends: Zhi yuan, Kenny, Yizhong, Cheong hing, Yong han, Kin lok, Kuen ho, Anwar, Xiang Jie, Terrence, Fahan, Hazwan, Visaruth, Roy, Donovan, Alvin, Hafiz, Iman, Daniel, Danny, Xuan Wei, Shing Yang, Edrei, Lin Zhen, Mervyn, Umar, Hamza, Christopher. hope i didn't forget any. if i did pls tell me...
I will never be able to make music with the exact same group of friends again... I treasure the memories of the times i spent with them.
Now that i'm finished with the past, i can look at the future. Sec school time has officially ended. As much as i would like to stay victorian, i will not be able to do it for at least the first 3 months. I'll be back after tt. i promise. IF my o levels can make it... i promise.
so here's my new year resolution:
1. enjoy myself in tj for first 3 months at least.
2. practice hard.
3. audition for sywo and maybe syo.
4. not study last min.
duno why i suddenly write such a long post, but anyway...
HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!
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1/01/2005 03:52:00 PM
Went genting with my parents for abt 3 days. The theme park rides were no kick and the food was not fantastic, but at least i managed to spend time with my parents... something i seldom do...
Went danny's hs ytd for countdown... slacked ard until this morning to sleep a while and then have breakfast... my biological clock is so screwed up now. i cant sleep earlier than 2 at night, and feel sleepy in the middle of the day... best part is tt school starts on mon...
speaking of school, school starts on mon. to all those who still havent realised... orientation... i guess i'll have to use this orientation to enjoy and make some new friends... after 3 months pass then i'll see what happens...
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1/01/2005 03:44:00 PM
tan thiam kee; 14th oct;
vscb/tjcsb; flute~~;
tkflutez@hotmail.com;