looks. they deceive.

Sunday, March 26, 2006
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blah

its happening again..

bleah..

abt time to start i suppose..

the only way is up now eh..

blah wadeva.

this blog seems dead.. only contains whinings nowadays..

well..

happy belated birthday mj :)

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3/26/2006 09:42:00 PM

Thursday, March 23, 2006
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hmm.. after some calculation, (just some, because the numbers involved are not very big) i realised if the march progress report is going to be based on the average score of all the tests, i'm going to get straight f's.. wow?

hmm..

how many times must this happen before i do sth abt it..

maybe its true that i only work under extreme stress conditions -.-

blah whatever.

busy week coming up.. deadline 29th march.. sounds far eh.. i've learnt to avoid that thought at all costs. haha..

choices..
consequences.

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3/23/2006 10:09:00 PM

Sunday, March 19, 2006
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blog on the verge of death once again..

hmm.. last day of hols..

by some stroke of luck, i managed to scrape through and pass my organ exam again.. when a few hrs before that i was still trying to figure out the notes of my songs.. -.-

camp was.. fun although i missed much of it.

band has been.. i dunno..

things yet to be done..

about time i started.. wun be so lucky everytime.. to do just well enough in the end..

blah apologies for the shabby posts.. will make a decent one soon..

soon..

-.-

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3/19/2006 04:58:00 PM

Friday, March 17, 2006
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hello :)

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3/17/2006 05:50:00 PM

Monday, March 06, 2006
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had quite a lot to blog about, but somehow nothing seems to come out.

what the heck..

i heard i've been sounding rather depressed..

haha

what the heck

i'm not making much sense..

again, what the heck.

hols are coming..

guess wad i'm gonna say..

blah wadeva

blah

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3/06/2006 09:02:00 PM

Thursday, March 02, 2006
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blah sry for lack of posts..

things have been.. rough..

first such post i'm making..

its happening again, things are running through my mind..

the time is coming..

ppl have been talking abt it..

i read my old posts.

i talked about how important it has become to me, talked about the bonds i made i band, talked about the wonderful memories i've had.

and i talked about how i had no regrets.

all those are still true till now. great memories, great experiences, no regrets.

ok maybe not totally no regrets, thoughts of alternatives came through my mind.
lots of what ifs..
things seem to have changed. what was so important to me, what i could give up everything for, what seemed like my life, has changed.

somehow, it dsn't feel so close to my heart anymore. dsn't seem to matter so much anymore. suddenly it just came tumbling down.

what did i do that for? why did i hang on so dearly? why did i give up so much?
couldn've achieved so much more, if not for my obsession..

no point thinking about this now.

no point.

alternatives dun seem so bad after all. world outside seems fine..

yeah no point indeed.

i look back,
and i wonder why..

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3/02/2006 09:01:00 PM

Happy Endings
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tan thiam kee; 14th oct;
vscb/tjcsb; flute~~;
tkflutez@hotmail.com;
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