[contradicting]
[contradicting]
[contradicting]
6/23/2008 09:00:00 PM
______________________
Even now, when we should by right be resigned to the fact that we're stuck in the organization and will have to return to work at the end of each week, the feeling of booking in still sucks. The idea of going back there for the better half of the week spending time with characters who possess egos the size of the universe is just such a turn off. Not that I'm Mr-humble-ego-free-guy-of-the-year, but yeah, point made.
In the process of trying to look cool and feel important and all powerful, they don't realise they're actually just being a big nuisance. Oh whatever. Of course to be fair, I'll have to say that there are some really respectable people where I'm working now. Only problem being some jerks are constantly jerking around at the corner of our eyes, and lives at work(if that's any work at all, instead of a colossal waste of time).
After a while, we all start to be able to identify promises rubbish when we hear them. These rubbish that enter our ears eventually form a layer of earwax that blocks out similar input, of which the supply may be the only one greater than egomen's ego.
Again, to cover my arse, and also because its true, I need to make a balance. The need to serve is real, and not entirely vain, just very much disliked, largely due to the lack of choice, which again brings us back to point no. 1 about the need to serve.
Oh how i wish/pray/hope for World peace. Too bad its become merely a dream in this age we're living in. Lol i should stop trying to sound intellectual.
To think I was complaining/bitching about egoistic jerks a while ago..
Now, back to real life. I desperately need to practice. I didn't clinch the noob-of-the-century title only because of some who are about 10 years more out of touch than myself. Still, i desperately need to practice so i wouldn't get the noob-of-the-decade title instead.
If only there were world peace---->no need for ahem---->no need to serve---->time to practice and do things that might even be remotely useful to our future.
I pray for grace, for the heart to take all this shit.
It seems however hard I try otherwise, I still wander back to the same topic.
Pathetic.
Time to book in.
No offense is intended to anybody or any organization in this post, so if you know I'm talking about you, you're wrong. I'm just an emokid ranting about somebody else and something else.
________________________________
6/09/2008 08:26:00 PM
______________________
Once again, I was lured into the realms of the band world as i played for VS alumni item in Musical World XXII. It was a long lost feeling, playing under the baton of Mr Tan, who has always been full of expressions. It was also nice to note the subtle cues that attempt to bring squeeze more sound out of certain characters and at the same time silence others. Simply put, we relived the VSCB experience minus the risk of being screwed. Haha. The band played pretty well, especially the first 2 pieces. I guess if anybody were to compare, the concert their own batch played in would always be better than preceding ones.
Going out with the vs gang felt exactly the same, as if nothing has changed. The way everybody is, the way they speak, walk, eat.. Everybody's grown, but some things just don't change :)
Some time ago, somebody asked how do i keep my passion for band. I think this is the answer. Many activities may hinder us from attending practice and all, but somehow or other everyone turns up for the concert. Being back with the same old people, doing the same old things. Not many things in this world can make us feel the same.
I know I'm going to look foward to the next time we meet up.
________________________________
6/02/2008 08:38:00 PM
tan thiam kee; 14th oct;
vscb/tjcsb; flute~~;
tkflutez@hotmail.com;