looks. they deceive.

Tuesday, June 30, 2009
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Secretly I do miss rehearsals. The nightly rehearsals that started right after we came back from mit. I half openly complained about having to drag my tired fat arse down everyday, but secretly enjoyed the rehearsals each time. I shall not go on lest I really enter a state of emo armadello (the word i just mentioned has no meaning whatsoever. just wanted sth that rhymed with emo and sounded cool).

Ah well, to put it in a nice way, I'm thankful for the memories that have become a part of my life.

In a not so nice way, time to suck thumb and move on.

Here we go again. All the orientations and what not. Once again, its getting to know new people, trying to be what/who I need to be, and through it all secretly knowing its all going to end again like 4 years down the road. Perhaps by then I would have matured(like finally) and not sound/be so emo/sian.

Maybe this time I'll be able to do more things right.

Oh dear why do I sound emo again.. I need to do something about my language. and attitude.

and motives.

Perhaps sleep is the answer. I shall go try it out.

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6/30/2009 01:15:00 AM

Sunday, June 28, 2009
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I think no matter how many performances one goes through, the post event euphoria still hits, followed by a tinge of nostalgia looking back at the times spent on rehearsals and preparations.

Looking back, I have to thank God for the way things turned out. From going for auditions only intending to accompany Mel, to attending the 2nd round of auditions with a high fever and no voice, to the choosing of roles, many rehearsals, buying stuffs, making the floor, more rehearsals, and then the final event. Its really amazing how everything pieced together.

I guess its inevitable that there are seasons in life when people come and go, and no matter how much one tries to hold on, most people don't stay. Its quite sad to think that somebody close to you now might become a mere acquaintance in a not so far away future.

This is when something I learnt in ns finally comes into use. Suck thumb and live with it.

The prospect of having to start over again in uni doesn't seem very appealing. That of having to study even less. A sense of impending doom looms ahead. And I stupidly offered to help ppl with econs. moron of the year.

On a happier note, there was a little track outing today. Movie was ok. Nice action, anyhow storyline, HOT girl. hEHhEH
It was nice to meet up with everybody :)

Now I officially join the ranks of delinquents.

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6/28/2009 11:33:00 PM

Monday, June 15, 2009
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Thanks to a little conversation, I just remembered part of what i wanted to write about last night.

Thanks to my little key fiasco, I actually got a ride home by Viv! Like how awesome is that!! Its like harder than getting my brains back. Viv who refused to send me anywhere since like beginning of the year.

Oh and we had this welcome tea party without tea held by the North district people. So we finally found ourselves again, after being semi-lost sheep for a while. I wonder how cell will be like now. In some ways I miss Ignyte. Ah well.

Now I can sleep with a piece of my mind (as you can see there aren't many left).

Good night world.

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6/15/2009 12:39:00 AM

Saturday, June 13, 2009
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Inspired by the fact that people actually still visit this historical site, I am making a second post, a mere week after the first.

Played for VS alumni yesterday. Somehow its always the same boring kind of pieces, yet always interesting. Played some disney song and can't take (surprise! and we had no score!). Disney was ok I guess. Can't take was woohoo! Blast-fest! Some things just never change.

The band sounded pretty good though. At least that's what I got from the little I could hear. They seemed to have gotten over the if-the-person-beside-you-is-out-of-tune-or-playing-rubbish, just-play-louder-to-cover-him-mode.

Supper after that at Lao Pa Sat. Some things and people just never change. Sum bunch of jokers noe.

Anw something's terribly wrong with Singaporeans. The last train was so packed. What is the world coming to man..

Ok I need to put this down. And secretly hope not too many people read this. I, the genius, drove to Old Airport Road, and locked myself out. For some reason, I decided to lock the door the uncle way (from the inside). Then I happily slammed the door shut and saw the keys mocking me from the driver's seat. Epic Fail.

Ok I shouldn't be blogging now. Sounds so boring. Some shocking event kind of obliterated any sense of humor left in my fat fingers.

I shall go eat some worms.

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6/13/2009 11:36:00 PM

Sunday, June 07, 2009
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I saw some bmt kids on the train this evening. A smirk spread uncontrollably across my face. I shamefully admit that I felt smugly sad for them, if that's possible. Talk about having a long road ahead.. Theirs is like a long stretch of cesspool.

Anyway, rehearsal was kinda fun, although I think i kinda cmi. Like really dunno what to do. Ah well, there's gonna be rehearsals like everyday. Secretly I feel a little lazy.

Another secret: I think I miss AT. Possibly because we all got so used to the schedule, and more so the people. The daily worship and devotion, LHO, lessons, lunch, fasting, prayer, the occasional impending sense of doom..

Bonus secret: I just realised if AT were to continue, I might as well stay in church till after June event.

I actually forgot what I originally intended to blog about.
Or if there was anything..
Maybe I've already done it.
Hmm
Brain rot.

School doesn't sound very attractive, especially in my current state of mind. In every sense of the phrase.

Suddenly I'm blogging again.
and this brings me to..
Suddenly!! a touch from heaven..

Kena slap by HS
hEHhEH
WAhahahaWAhahaha

ok not making sense anymore
WOGAY

Oh yes before I forget(again)
Happy Birthday Pong!

I should change my blogskin soon.. so emo.

lalalala

ok typing nonsense.
its a sign

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6/07/2009 11:34:00 PM

Monday, June 01, 2009
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So I heard I'm blogging again. After a million years.

First of all,

ORD LOH

Sorry its kinda late, but yeah. I need to put this down. Its like the day of my life. I once was dead but am now alive.

Anyway, I was in China for a while, then came back and went to Taiwan with army dudes. Life out of army rox sox. Shall not elaborate too much about the trips, because secretly I cannot remember a lot of things.

Yes I've caught the 'secretly bug'. Compliments to Theo.

Anyway, Alpha Track is ending. Like suddenly. Lol.

Just came back from Philippines. Some things I will never forget..

The kids who swarmed up to us at the villages, the kids who brought their own utensils to church for their daily meal, the kids who were all over the place.
The kids who asked "when will you be coming back."
The boy with the rubics cube who said " I will miss you."

How the 2 boys seemed to have a different outlook after they received Christ.
All the people who came up to say thank you for your prayer.
All those who were so touched by what was done through us.

I feel I've been blessed more than I've blessed anybody else.

We always see poverty, slums and all on tv and in the news, but there are some things we just need to see for ourselves.

Before I start to sound more emo, I'm just really glad that God used me in so many ways this trip. Like he totally went over my expectations. He kind of brought me to a hill, kicked me down, rescued me, then sent me to a mountain and threw me off again, then made me fly.
In a good way. haha

At the end of the day, its not about me. I think its not easy to say something like that and really mean it. I believe I have been brought to a place where I can.

Lol emokid.
once again, in a good way.

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6/01/2009 09:22:00 PM

Happy Endings
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